Yes, for me.
Because I feel frumpy. I feel fat. I feel boring.
I want to go swimming, to the beach. I want to look good in all my clothes, and not just when I’m wearing scary stomach-sucking-in underwear and multiple pairs of tights. I want to wear bodycon dresses and little vest tops rather than big chiffon tents to hide in. I want my legs to stop chafing together. I want a flat tummy.
cornflakes for breakfast and mcdonalds for lunch/dinner (5pm)
whats wrong with me arghhhhh
(Source: olivia-greenfield, via thatskintightdress)
It technically has just turned midnight so I can do this one now.
My biggest fear is to do with my own lack of willpower, and it’s a valid fear as it has happened before. I’m scared that I won’t see results as quickly as I’d like, and I’ll just give up and end up even worse than I am now. This tumblr is helping millions, but I’ve always found it very difficult to motivate myself and to stick with something even if I don’t see results straight away.
I’m also scared that even if I lose the weight it still won’t make me feel any better about myself. I’ve been assuming for a long time that my entire lack of self confidence is based on my weight and my figure; what if I lose weight and still feel shit about myself, I don’t know what I’d do then. I’m trying not to think about that and I’ll cross that bridge if/when I come to it.
this week -
Monday, night in - easy to regulate what I eat
Tuesday, cooking and movie with friends - if I decide what to cook and if I buy the ingredients then this will be okay. I’m thinking veg fajitas, then I just will have the filling and no wrap, and some salad
Wednesday, cinema for Hunger Games and then Subway - I’ll have what subway call a ‘healthy’ option and hope that’ll suffice
Thursday, night in - easy
Friday, cooking in hotel in Paris with friends - will probably be something cheap and easy like pasta in a tomato sauce so I’ll just make sure I don’t have too much
Saturday, Disneyland - too expensive to eat there, so will make a box of pesto pasta to take with me, along with a greek yoghurt, some mandarines and a bottle of water
Sunday, sleep all day and do lesson plans - easy to regulate
I love the delicacy of Natalie Portman in Black Swan, the collarbones, the thigh gap and the grace with which she moves, as if she knows she’s turning heads.
